I was Here…


By Nathalie Zulu M.

Another night sitting on my couch,
Expectant but worry
Thinking in the quietness of my home
As all were asleep
I said
Will he come?
Will he call?
Will he answer?
Will he say it?
Expectant but worry
And a day and a night
Same music playing in my head
Am I dreaming? No!
It’s another night sitting on my couch
Expectant but worry
Thinking in the quietness of my home
As all were asleep
I said
Will he come?
Will he call?
Will he answer?
Will he say it?

I was there
I was there
And a day and a night
The same old music playing in my head
Am I dreaming? No No!
And I said
He won’t come
He won’t call
He won’t answer
He won’t say it
I cried loud my pain
Ripped my voice from inside
Torn my heart into pieces
Am I dreaming? No no no!
Quietly I said again
He won’t come
He won’t call
He won’t answer
He won’t say it
Not another day nor another night
I opened my door, stepped out and breathed deeply
Till I vomited my pain and let out of my cries
Then he,
He came
He called
He answered
He said it
It’s not my fault, I was there days and nights
Expectant but worry
I opened my heart and you didn’t step in
I was broken and you didn’t look back
But he,
Stepped in, pulled me up
With a smile he said
A flower need to be watered
A broken heart need to be mended
And you, need to be loved
He took it all
Yes he came
He called
He answered
He said it
It’s not my fault, I was there.

Way to Happiness


Many men and women tend to take their partners for granted, that’s a huge mistake! Let wake up and understand that works need to be done from both sides in order to live and enjoy the all of our partners.
Women have the ability to adapt to any situation, to be patient and understanding, to endure, even to compromise and all because of love. Most of the time we forget our own happiness, cover mistakes and settle for less than what we dreamed for.

Happiness starts with you lady!
Not with your relationship, not with your job, not with your money but with you.
It comes from within not from a man.

Learn to love yourself, treat yourself well. Your beauty is from inside but remember people first come in encounter with the outside.

Like a flower, discover my beauty.
Like a flower, discover my beauty.

How you present yourself, the way you speak, your smile and attitude will determine whether or not to approach you and have any kind of relationship. So be smart enough to give to yourself the attention, respect and love you wish others to give you.
Spoil yourself time to time to a good movie, a nice restaurant, a local/ international trip, and why not a makeover just to WOW some people.

Trust me, as a single mother I have been too busy spoiling my children and at the end when came the night I felt like I wasn’t happy. I blamed my children’s father for a long time until I realized after ready a lot on relationships that I am the sole owner of my happiness. I started changing the routine. I sometimes go out dinner or to concert with a sister friend of mine and the first time I went to the movie alone was last August, I felt it weird but seeing that I wasn’t the only single person in the theatre made me realized what I was missing all the years going for kids movies.

By the way I watched * Bad Moms* It was so hilarious, I laughed so much that I could feel something different within me. Even my children could see that I really enjoyed that movie night out.

Always remember that your happiness is a must in relationship whether you are married or not. You need to keep your partner feeling wanted but also feeling the need of you. Spoil him with things that can’t be bought like your time, love and respect. Be a good listener, attentive to his need.

I read something from a Facebook page that I want to share with you. A sad reality that most of men don’t realize until it’s too late.
Relationships, Woman's pain, Unhappiness, Desire
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When a man doesn’t know how to respond to your love and attention it gets hard to be happy in the relationship. He shouldn’t let you guess his feelings for you.
A man who doesn’t fight for you isn’t worth fighting for. Stop investing your emotions for a man who is playing guessing games with you and act like he cares less whether you are in his life or not. If he can disrespect, cheat, starve you of time, attention, commitment and you still stay loyal to him, you’re teaching him to never value you, because he can neglect you and still get your all. A real man won’t put himself in a position to lose you.
When you are in a relationship take time to listen not only to your man’s words but also be attentive to his actions they tell you more than the words coming out of his mouth.

Do not settle for someone treating you less than you deserve to be treated! If they don’t see your worth, value, beauty inside and out, it’s their loss!
You deserve a relationship with someone who doesn’t make you compete for his affection and never has you question your position in his life.
You are a woman someone is praying for.